Lonely in an emptyness

The room was full with people
They were wearing costumes
Clowns, gypsies, fortuneteller, ringmasters and more

The music was so loud
I even could not hear my own voice
The cloud was a little bit dark
Seemed was going to be raining

I was searching for a place where I can be
But, no one I know
Just familiar faces that i see everyday
They're all laughing

My eyes swept all the area of the party
And there he was, the guy that i think of
He just stand there...
Wearing all black, with a grey vedora
Looked so cool and gentle

I danced with the other people
To relieve my stress
Don't care they're thinking that i'm crazy
But, it helped

So Many people around me
Dancing and laughing
But, what i feel was empty
And what i thought was him, him and him

I know he was watching at me
But, I don't care
Never felt like this before
Being rejected...

The water dropped from the sky
When the rain illuminate the night
Felt like I can see only myself... dancing in the rain
With him... in my mind, in my eyes, in my heart

Just wondering, when will this feeling fade away
Or just let me see him with someone
So I can go away

Ai rili mis him

Shiiiiiiiiitttt, I really hate this feeling.Emang kalo lagi kangen sama seseorang, trus gak bisa ketemu, gak bisa meluk or ngelepas kangen tuh emeng bener2 nyebelin yah. Sama deh ama apa yang lagi gw rasain sekarang. Gw bener2 kangen sama mantan gw. Hiks hiks hiks (mewek).

Doi lagi kuliah di jogja, doi adalah mantan gw pertama, pacar pertama dan cinta monyet pertama. Hehehehehe, yah, masih jaman2nya SMA kan pastinya cinta monyet tuh. Yah, kita putuspun karena doi pindah ke jogja buat kuliah. Padahal waktu itu, gw masih sayng banget sama doi. huiks.

Nah, beberapa malam yang lalu, gw mimpiin doi, yah sejak itu gw jadi kangan deh tiap hari. siaaaaaaaaalllllll. Kenapa sial? ya sial lah. Gw cuman bisa bilang ke doi kalo gw kangen. That's it. Gak ada yang bisa gw lakuin lah. Doi nun jauh di sana, gw nun jauh di sini, kita jauh2an deh. hehehe.

Yah, mending kita masih pacaran gt ya, bisa sayang2an. Hahahaha, nah ini udah putus, gmn donk????? Waaaaaaaaa tersiksa deh rasanya. Gw harus gmn donk? Tapi, doi bakalan balik ke bali desember ini. Biasalah, natalan. Yah... semoga gw bisa ketemu dan melepas rindu. ahhahahaha alah alah alah, bahasa gw udah kayak roman picisan ajah nie.

Ya wes lah, itu aja.
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